February. Holy Moly. 2019 is soaring faster than ever. And here we are in February. It's my birthday month. It's the month my parents became parents. Ah, wait - no it isn't. It's the day they held their anticipated baby in their arms.
They became parents in May.
I became a parent in December of 2002 - the only visible sign was a faint blue line that didn't even show up until the next day. And that's just about all I ever saw. That precious baby is in my prayers still, along with his / her living brother and sisters. And I'm trying to live my best life so that I may one day know baby #1 for keeps.
Lucky for us, we were given three more little miracles, and I am so incredibly grateful to have held those babies in my arms and raise them according to His instruction. The joy they have brought us outweighs any tough morning we have. And our home, though chaotic at (most) times, is full of love.
In our world, my heart is broken for what is going on. I understand the reasoning behind what the laws are for, but I can't accept it. We all know that it will be misused at the highest level, the laws are often bent and broken according to whoever holds the deepest pockets, even in cases of intense morality...infanticide.
They became parents in May.
I became a parent in December of 2002 - the only visible sign was a faint blue line that didn't even show up until the next day. And that's just about all I ever saw. That precious baby is in my prayers still, along with his / her living brother and sisters. And I'm trying to live my best life so that I may one day know baby #1 for keeps.
Lucky for us, we were given three more little miracles, and I am so incredibly grateful to have held those babies in my arms and raise them according to His instruction. The joy they have brought us outweighs any tough morning we have. And our home, though chaotic at (most) times, is full of love.
In our world, my heart is broken for what is going on. I understand the reasoning behind what the laws are for, but I can't accept it. We all know that it will be misused at the highest level, the laws are often bent and broken according to whoever holds the deepest pockets, even in cases of intense morality...infanticide.
"Let us also love our neighbors as ourselves. Let us have charity and humility...We must not be wise and prudent according to the flesh. Rather we must be simple, humble and pure. We should never desire to be over others. Instead, we ought to be servants who are submissive to every human being for God's sake." St. Francis of Assisi
So sortof a sad little post for today. But the day I became a parent, I knew that my life was no longer my own. I mean, I had no idea how MUCH my life would no longer be my own, but it wasn't. I had a GREAT 27 years. And as far as sacrifices go, it never was one. Maybe before I actually made the sacrifice, I might have thought that I would be giving it all up for those little souls.
So sortof a sad little post for today. But the day I became a parent, I knew that my life was no longer my own. I mean, I had no idea how MUCH my life would no longer be my own, but it wasn't. I had a GREAT 27 years. And as far as sacrifices go, it never was one. Maybe before I actually made the sacrifice, I might have thought that I would be giving it all up for those little souls.
Oh but no, it never was less than a heart-felt, joyous gift. And giving it all up - nope, I didn't do that in the least bit. I became a mom. I was given so much more. And it truly is in giving that we receive.
I thought you would like this one, Aunt Karen, especially on your birthday. I know how much you wanted a big family, you were always there for all of us, and we were honored to call your ours. You held my hand through some tough times. I won't ever forget that. Thank you for opening your eyes when I didn't know what to pray for. I was just standing next to you, not really understanding why cancer was taking you in such a horrible way. You were sleeping, so beautifully at peace. I do believe in miracles, I'm one of them, but I had exhausted my requests, and for whatever reason, I knew that you were were being called home. So in that moment, I simply asked God to just let His presence be known. It was then when your eyes opened and looked right at me as if in some surreal dream when things just happen on cue. I will never forget the way the love poured from your heart when we saw each other. You must have said, "I love you." a thousand times, over and over again.
I'll hold onto that for as long as I live.
Happy Birthday, sweet Aunt Karen. I love you back, a million times over.
I thought you would like this one, Aunt Karen, especially on your birthday. I know how much you wanted a big family, you were always there for all of us, and we were honored to call your ours. You held my hand through some tough times. I won't ever forget that. Thank you for opening your eyes when I didn't know what to pray for. I was just standing next to you, not really understanding why cancer was taking you in such a horrible way. You were sleeping, so beautifully at peace. I do believe in miracles, I'm one of them, but I had exhausted my requests, and for whatever reason, I knew that you were were being called home. So in that moment, I simply asked God to just let His presence be known. It was then when your eyes opened and looked right at me as if in some surreal dream when things just happen on cue. I will never forget the way the love poured from your heart when we saw each other. You must have said, "I love you." a thousand times, over and over again.
I'll hold onto that for as long as I live.
Happy Birthday, sweet Aunt Karen. I love you back, a million times over.
Pray for the babies. That's the most powerful thing we can do.
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